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My dilemma

I have been feeling like this for quite some time (10+ years). Although, I am feeling better, every now it gets to me. I am writing this blog for anyone who is feeling the same way. I am from West Africa (Senegal). I have come to the US when I was 15 years old. So, which means I have a little experience living in Africa. My first 5 years in the US was naive, yet blissful. As I learned more about how this country functioned, I became more recluse and depressed. I know everything is about perception but my mind could not get around the fact that people are seen through the lenses of races and that people wear color as a meaning. I know in certain cultures people are identified by tribes or religion. Nevertheless, it is hard and blissful to meet people who can see you beyond all labels and enjoy you so much. And I would like to do the same for anybody. It is so great to make the will of God complete -- to want nothing from another person but to love them unconditionally and to receiv

Divorce and Marriage

I don't find any benefits anymore being in a relationship. I am 30 years old with a great job, great mental peace and stability. My heart is at peace. I don't see any need to go into a nightmare in the name of marriage or relationship. By the way I am straight. Times are different and the condition in which we are living as a whole has made it almost unbearable to be with someone. For instance, me being in a relationship, I have to worry always what she wants, what she is thinking, what she is doing... how do I respond to what she did. This is hell, perpetual hell. To those who are in a relationship and it is working for them, I would say "good". Some of it I must say is personality involved. My vibe no longer jive in being lost in situations such as intimate relationships. I have married my job, my gym, my cooking, my prayers... I am totally content with being single. My heart is finally living, and becoming free day by day. It seems like a huge load coming out o

Blacks in the workforce...

We are never truly appreciated. We are always seen as an accessory. That pushes me off. The white population will never recognize us as true contributors. It sickens me and if it does, something is wrong. One day I will own my own business and I will be free from kissing asses.

Ancient Egypt

Ancient Egyptian is not a civilization of the past but of the future. Its values and culture and technology without harming the environment is a lesson we must undertake. Not only to treat the earth better but to have a deeper realization of oneself. As wisdom dictates, everything must happen within first. If there is no peace within, there is confusion to begin with. A confused mind will never choose what is best. Wisdom comes from stillness. As Gordjeff stated, "Ancient Egypt was an advanced civilization in terms of spirituality and knowledge of the universe". Modern man has made man no longer a spirit but a body broken down into atoms and cells. You go into an hospital, in the surgery room; it is like a slaughter house.

Lebron is in Miami September 10, 2015

Lebron is calling on his Cavs teammates to join him in Miami for a team training, geared at making a successful championship run. The media is all over Lebron but there are other players doing the same thing such as D Wade, the Portland Trailblazers... Meanwhile Tony Parker, Dirk Nowitsky are still playing for the Euro League. Gorgui Dieng is playing for the African League. For the Cavs, it all comes down to team chemistry and health... to read more about Tristan Thompson.

Tristan Thompson

TT is holding the Cavs back. Nevertheless if he really thinks he deserves Max and can get Max, then he should take the qualifying offer and go to a different team. The fact that Love makes Max is not a valid argument. Yes, he is a good defender but he is nowhere near Max. When we talk Max, we talk about Lebron, Carmelo, D. Rose... Many centers who have been offered Max have not fared well. Look at Stoudemire... If the Cavs give him the Max, they are mad. The Cavs have already made a terrible mistake by letting Wiggins go, knowing that Love will be a free agent next Year. Dan Gilbert needs to stop listening to Lebron, although he has good vision, he is nowhere perfect, and as a management, one must foresee the future, long-term perspective. And Lebron needs to stop making such statements, playing Mr. Manager. Had they not traded Wiggins, all of this money issue would not be a problem. Tristan would have just taken the $50 mil, Love Max, Lebron Max, Irving Max which is enough for a

Student Loans

It is tempting to use student loans. I was surprised the other day when I went to check if I qualified for financial aid...The lady said that I do not qualify for any grants or aid because my income which was $30,000 was above the poverty limit level ($8,000). I asked her: "How can anybody live off $8,000." What if I don't make my financial aid payments on time. I will have a grace period of 60 days to tackle it. Beyond that, it can go to credit reporting agencies.